Seeing the "child" me

Today,

it is the first day of my Paediatrics rotation, 8 weeks in total. I must say, I am super excited for this new rotation. Actually, I have planned to study this rotation 1 month priorMaybe because it is the start of my 4th year, which is 1 year away from graduation. Basically, in this rotation, i will learn about the development of the baby and children. 

And this thought has crossed my mind this morning.

“Oh Allah, when i was a kid, i didnt get the chance to really understand about You. My life was revolved around my parents and my siblings. I live to explore the world. I played to celebrate the joy. I was living to enjoy the food, the television program and to cherish my childhood time. 

I was just a kid, who went to parents to seek refuge, support, love and care. I couldn't get the chance to really appreciate my growth. I couldnt be grateful as i was indulging in my own imaginary world. 

Oh Allah, now, being in Paediatrics rotation, I am ready to cherish every knowledge about baby and children. I want to really appreciate this as I can understand more about how you care for me so much when i was kid. 

Thank you Ya Rabb ( the nurturer) for this opportunity, so that i can witness and be more grateful when seeing the “child” me as i get to see the children in the hospital. 

Paediatrics Day 1 

24/6/2019 

Hon

It was 8 in the morning. Less than a week, i will be having my medicine rotation exam. Today, H will be driving K.N’s car. Her car is pretty big. Both of us, not use to it. I think, i close the door perfectly, but still not sure about it. Its fine, the door was locked anyway. 

While on the road,

There was one car, started to push the hon to us. I took a glance to the left, i saw the driver keep on miming “pintu” and pointed her finger to my door. 

What a surprise! It was quick! The hon was for my door!!! 

I reflected on the lesson : people, do not be ignorant! Do take care of each other. Thank you Ms. driver, for the attempt to tell me to close my door. 

Have a blessed day. 

x

What did i do?

Assalamualaikum, 

Everyday is a lesson. 

I just decided to tell many interesting stories on my everyday life in this clinical years. 

So yup, as this is my first reflection. I just gonna start with the simple one. 

How can I as a medical student save the world? 

So basically -  Why did i choose to be a medical student? To save the world? 

~What did i do?~ 

This morning, in the car while waiting for traffic lights - i saw an uncle cleaning up the leaves near the pavement. In this early peak hours, he already collected 3 bags of fallen leaves. Wow!!! 👏🏻

And i reflected upon myself. Today! What did i do for the world? Na.....🤦🏻‍♀️ nothing i guess. 

I am just spending my time going to hospital ➡️ chasing patient for my case write up.  Still blur on my physical examination, not knowing many things. 

I guess it is impossible for me to see what i did today is for the betterment of future. Cause it is all about me surviving this clinical years. At least the uncle clean this earth thou😝. 

This picture reminds me of : i might not save the world now. But i am stacking up my knowledge everyday, like how the romans build the building- rome does not built in a day. 

Learning is a process. A long one. He puts me in this path, thus i believe this is the best way to get his blessings. 

Keep going. Keep adding the knowledge - it will be something great in the future. 

Go mira 👻

Allah, increase a beneficial knowledge for me. 

P/s:  haha, i think i didnt answer the reason why i choose to be medical student 😜

Stay tuned 

Berbuat

Day 1

~Berbuat~

Hari pertamaku dimulakan dengan sesaknya keadaan trafik di Penang ini. 

Risau dan gementar juga kerana ahli yang lain sudah tiba. 

Kereta dipandu laju. Aku hanya terduduk di belakang.7.28 pagi. Kami perlu tiba seawal 7.30 pagi di wad pembedahan kerana rotation surgery ku.  

Setibanya di situ aku berlari sepantasnya untuk mengejar waktu. 

••••••••••

Dengan ‘whitecoat’ yang dipakai. Aku berjalan memerhati sekelililng. Kiri dan kanan. Ramai sungguh di hospital ini. Mereka juga begitu. Memerhati aku di sini. Seorang Amirah yang masih lagi baru mengenal kehidupan di tempat asing ini. 

••••••••••

Sudah 2 pesakit dijumpai. Kami sekumpulan pelajar medic berkumpul. Dibincangnya semua yang menjadi tanda tanya. Berkongsi info demi memahami apa yang terjadi. 

Mata ku tertoleh pada seorang makcik di atas katil, rupanya dia tersenyum melihat telatah kami, lalu ke tegur dengan senyum ku padanya juga 

•••••••••••

Di hospital ini 

Aku melihat, betapa manusia berharap untuk dipulihkan. 

Betapa manusia tidak putus harapan. 

Betapa manusia direlakan untuk dibantu, asal ada yang sudi memerhati dan memberi. 

Perlunya yang berbuat. Menyambut semua keperluan. 

Yang diluar masih perlukan bantuan, pertolongan. 

Asal kamu pemberi, 

Bergegas untuk berbuat semampu mu,kerana hanya kamu yang mampu

berusaha sedayamu,

Kerana kamu utuh berbuat itu. 

Asal kamu belajar tentang erti usaha...

Lagi... lagi... dan lagi...

Tiada henti 

Belajarlah, sehingga kamu mahir meskipun kamu bertatih

Belajar lah erti harapan dan kehidupan

Besar harganya. 

Surah Luqman 31 : 22

Dan barang siapa berserah diri kepada Allah, sedang dia berbuat kebaikan, maka sesugguhnya dia telah berpegang kepada simpulan (tali) yang kukuh. Hanya kepada Allah kesudahan segala urusan. 

9.00pm

22/1/2019

Hayaah