1,2,3 Semester di Kolej MARA Banting (KMB)

The reason why I am writing this blog entry after 4 months missing from 

this cloud world.

Well. Assalamualaikum everyone. 

May Allah Al- Mighty bless you guys and brighten your day. Yeay

Peace be upon our lovely Prophet Muhamad  for the Islam and Faith 

Al- fatihah to the most supportive parents ; mama and ayah

Honestly, I kind of lost my ability to write. 

I  had once love and enjoy writing to express my thoughts and feelings

Maybe, I guess I was too focused writing the assignments instead of spending 

my time in blog

So, this is the wrap up for my journey in KMB,

the truth of becoming and IB student!

IB is a mysterious path that  lead you to discover the light in 

the darkness of heart

The sorrow, hollow, and tears! 

Not to forget to mention

The joy, feeling contented and the smile!

 Yeah! Dealing with variety of emotions

Crazy ha!

Either you stand or lose?

It is a battleship!

Hahaha... Takut tak IB ni?

Yes? No?

I promise you!

it is a wonderful journey of knowing yourself before anyone else!

Worth it! You will never regret  

So lets begin 

Semester 1: July 2014

 #Finding Nemo

So, this semester is about finding you! Why?

Because you are human that always change! If that so; you can also adapt!

Common thing to say, when you are in new place, there will be new 

rules, room, food menu, class, teacher, and  friend.

Nah! Now you know who you are

I mean all the thoughts in your head;can be good or bad

You can be rebellious sometimes 

But it is fine because human full of principles. 

We have different life stories;  stop judging someone based on their appearance

They are also human; a creation that is hard to understand, or I can say special.

It just that God has created that way so that you can learn from others!

Man! life is too short! because of that;everyone that you meet should be 

a mining site. Dig all the good things from them. 

your life will be better!

So,chill out and please mingle with everybody. 

Treat them equally as you want for yourself

I understand some might annoyed you but give them chance!

Try to know and learn their attitude

Take a lot of pictures! Create as many as enjoyable memory with them

(Frankly I have almost 1800 photos only for this sem)

One more, work with everyone especially in presentation or in chemistry lab

Hmm,

All I know, It is about finding friend that can get along with you.

But it is not the main topic of this semester because I used to be independent.

So lets turn to education!

What about it? Hmm yeah!!! the programme itself ! 

It is so unique that I know you will never understand at first!

What is this? How is the assessment! New and totally different from Malaysia 

educational system.

You know what! Alhamdulillah and you should be glad! You are going to train

yourself to be open- minded person; which I think that this programme is the 

best for students that going to pursue their studies in oversea. Yeah! Watch me! 

(Read story in Sem 2 & 3)

So. firstly, you have to explore what is your learning style?

Vision, Audio 

Like for me, it is all about hardworking! Exercise and consulting teachers

Once you don't know please make yourself free during the afternoon

Dating with them for the sake of knowledge. Yeah!

It is true! You get the advantage. You get more information that what in the class

Pn Mazlina ( my chemistry teacher) once told me that

 " The teacher are willing and glad to help the weak student or any student larh. As long as they have the effort to come and see the teacher"

See! Teachers are not monster. They dont eat people. Just admit okay!
You have forgot all the mathematical steps and forgot all! huhuhu
Just meet them and ask for their guidance to help you
Even you will get scold by them. Be patience and enjoy your  life in Sem 1
Easy ha?

Result sem 1 : 33 point
Okay! I wanna share my experince and I have discovered a lesson from my result. 
Firstly, I admit that it is hard to accept this result. I questioned myself!
Not easy okay!
Because of what?
because reflecting my life in semester 1 : read link All things that I have done 
I realised that it is not all about effort. Man jadda wa jada.
Who strive he get it. It sunnatullah.
But, there is something! The element is missing. 
Allah swt wants me to treasure it, discover it! 
Yeah. What else we need after all the burning candles and doa?
Hmmm. So my journey to search this precious lesson continues in Sem 2

" Effort + Doa + _______ = Success "

Semester 2 :  January 2015

#I found you!

Owh, in this sem, starts all the brainstorming, People can be mean this time.

We fought for the idea, all you know that you are the last one consulting for

Research Question (RQ), pity of you.

You get EE. What else in line? Okay.. all the briefing for IAs starts now.

Ahah! Written assignment Malay, TOK presentation preparation

at the same time you have to strive for semester 2 result

It is important for predicting result ( University application)

We also fought for advisors. What?

Worse ha! They are not mean. They are wise! Take the opportunity. 

They run for it... or otherwise you will be like the undaa, 

(in 3 idiot story means broken bird eggs, they will not hatch)

Bye! Bye!

I am a little bit depressed at this time as I was not like others

Just pop put the idea.

Is there one? Or they are actually struggling to find idea?

Maybe. Allah knows what they have done for that RQ.

Lets focus to myself

I got rejected twice in front of many students.

For almost a month I sought for the best RQ for my EE

Improvised it almost 3 times

I even recorded myself in front of computer

(explaining how difficult to form the RQ)

Can be mental sometimes. haha. Actually I kind of a sentimental person. 

Love to keep all the important moment that made my life

I was very grateful to have this one man

Standing by me. Always be with me!

All the time.

Yeah thats it! I called them everyday.Once.

Telling them my condition. Keep in touch with them.

Mama and ayah

Alhamdulillah

I even got help from a very wonderful friend. 

Not to mention her because she just so kind!

(May Allah swt ease your journey girl! Ameen)

I started to plan one month earlier

One week for one subject.

It worked! Bundle of seniors papers. Get thorough it.

Result sem 2 : 35 point

Summary of what I felt for this result : read link I never deserved this

I am not the right person to say about this. But one thing I wanna share

IKHLAS your heart. Go beyond that. 

Okay. This is  my question:

"How to be ikhlas in learning/ belajar?"

Do it because of Allah!

Correct!

Hold on!

How to know either you sincere or not?

Simple!

You don't hope for the reply from others

Yes! Tidak meminta apa-apa balasan.

Hmm.. Tapi kita belajar betol- betol nak dapatkan result yang baik

Betol itu. benar.

But the question is after all the good result;

Is that all?

Is that all life is about?

Setiap amalan kita perlu diupgrade.

Dulu masa zaman kecil, betul kita buat demi pahala

demi fadhilatnya

Dan bila meningkat dewasa, jom kita tingkatkan segala ibadah kita

HANYA pada Allah swt.

So...I found IKHLAS!

" Effort + Dua + Ikhlas = Success "

The entire one months.I revise all for Allah swt, My God.

Ya Allah aku belajar ini keranamu

Aku tidak mengharapkan apa-apa

Aku berusaha sedaya upaya untuk menjalankan 

amanahku sebagai seorang pelajar

It just like there was a barrier for me to study just for the good result

A solid wall that become a veil from seeing the good result as my aim

All I know I have to please Allah! Study betol- betol!

And bertawakal padanya.

Belajar, belajar and belajar
No no no honor point
Da....

Just learn okay. Enjoy it.
All of the group discussions
Dont put too much pressure on yourself
Chill man!
But don't take for granted..

Huhuhu..It kind of hard to explain. 
I am sorry.. ( you can leave comment asking me to explain deeper)
But this is the thing that I did.

Alhamdulillah for the wonderful result.

I tell you! IB is the journey of heart!

Realise something?

There is one more that I need to learn 

"Effort + Doa + Ikhlas + Tawakkal = Sucess"

Semester 3: July 2015

# The dark side 

It is sooo dark. No light! It hard and full of thorns,stones that gonna hurt you.

So badly! I am not talking about semester 3.

I am talking about your heart! My heart to be precise

No! Everyone heart! 

Psycho dia ni. Tidak Tidak.

Just creating drama. 

Haha

This semester is about supporting each other! 

Thinking about others

Or about you?

To be honest! It is the semester of emotion.

You too busy striving for dunya that you forget about akhirat

Sometimes. Lets reflect.. Okay. Solat done! Al- Quran done! Do good deed done!

Whatelse? Hmmmm

I felt hollow inside. (Apalagi dia ni.. Tadi psycho)

Something is missing.

I have done all the good thing and make it as routine

It hurt me so much that I cannot taste the sweetness of faith

Allahu akbar

It is the worst thing that happen to me, okay!

As analogy

This is chocolate. or ice cream. or imagine something with flavour

you eat it , sip it,

But, It is tasteless!

What happen to the tongue

It is not the food, but it is the organ, your taste bud

Cannot feel it anymore

Awful and tragic!

I tell you,

I have became heartless,

Because I was under pressure,

with all the EE and redundancy of IA works, TOK presentation/ essay.

Maybe my fault! 

Time management I guess

or Discipline!

I dont know why, but I need to tell you guys this story as a lesson

I was a monster that in hunger

I burst my anger to one of my best friend

for making noise in the middle of night

Not really middle larh. Baru 9 o'clock.

In the phone I talked to her ( walhal bilik sebelah)

After that, I feel bad about myself

She is the most nice person I ever met 
she help to wake me up in the morning asking me to complete my IA Biology
everyday, asking either I have completed my work or not.

She is always there with me.

Okay, not to bring heart matters here. but the lesson is

All of this thing, all of the work will come to you,

maybe sudden things that could intrude your focus

Not about all of these things, It is a UJIAN

because Allah swt wanna see how you deal with this situation

It is all about you!

Be monster or angel!

Lets change the story.

While I am under the pressure regarding EE

She's making noise

Okay.. be calm

stand up

knock her door

and tell her nicely to slow down

Say sorry 

Then, return to your room.

Its better ha!

Okay. Semester 3 is about dealing with the most villain creature of you.

managing yourself correctly.

and appreciating the people around you.
Friendship important!

It is a real story okay. 

Lastly, see all of the work. I admit October is the most packed month.

Submitting work and  ready for many test.....
A lot! All I realised I am weak and incapable of controlling everything
only Allah knows the future. Now! Ask only from him! Believe!

I learn to put all of my reliance upon Allah! Ask him to give all the guidance in

the test. It called TAWAKAL and it need you to betol- betol yakin.

Tawakal along the way, while reading, before and after the test

Believe that Allah will help you and show your path.

You are the lowest creation with nothing at all

only need his help

I admit with Allah blessings that I got good score in my Chem examinations.

I will keep it as my memory. The most wonderful one.

It all Allah swt work, not from me.

"Little effort + Tawakal while reading = Good score in Chem"

Result sem 3 : 34 points

This time! TAWAKAL is the most significant one. I have no time to read.
No time to do tons of exercise
No time to consult teacher
Even no time to do group discussion 
huhuhu
Again, maybe I am lacking skill for time management
During the study leave, I completed my IA business & management
a week before, focusing on IOC MALAY
and IA MATH.
Hmm, all i can do , the night before exam, ask Allah swt what should I read
and that morning, entering examination hall : not fully prepared not even revise all of the chapters

Put my trust in Allah!
And hit the paper with pen.
Asking Allah to guide me, lead me writing the best answer in exam 


Subhanallah, this result is a lot more better! Not the numbers matter,
The story behinds it is important
Sweet or bitter

Not the honor roll that matters,
It is that we fly together! Next semester.
 Amin 

I feel better now.

It is indeed true. 

With remembrance of Allah, your heart will assured. 

~Ar- ra'd 13: 28~

As conclusion:

IB life : Effort + Dua + Ikhlas + Tawakal + Believe in Allah swt

See... many elements that contribute to success and happiness. guess what. 

no need to guess lah, Haha.. 

only one of it can be visualised ( effort); you see it, people see it!
and 4 of it rely by the role of your heart. 
Achieve by spiritual practice.
IB life is not complex, it just need the two elements of human;
the body, and the spirit! 

Hah! great journey of IB. I will never regret it!

 Wherever you are.

Discover yourself especially the heart

Treat it first because sayings from hadith: 

There lies within the body a piece of flesh. 

If it is good, the whole body is good 

and if it is corrupted, the whole body is corrupted. 

Verily this piece is the HEART."

my heart........

One more:
Happiness is when you see others smile because of you
be the one who give!

Then, I know why Allah has destined me in IB,

I found him! and the true me!

Macam dah habis je IB kan!

1 more semester. IB MAY 2016

Doakan saya, kelas M 14F and batch averroes.
To the special one yang nak start IB. Go!
Best! Tak tipu!
Terrifying! Tu pon tak tipu!
Haha

Saya harap anda bergembira dengan tulisan saya dan thank you for reading it

Hope you gain a lesson.
Saya doakan anda sentiasa dilindungi oleh Allah swt. 

Assalamualaikum. =)

Recipe #1: "On the spot, we decide..."

There will never be a good sample of recipe of life. The recipe of happiness
here in dunya and akhirat.  I realised that my parents have their own recipe
to build up the strong basis of Islam in me and to have my own principle in
life no matter who I am; where I've been in the future. May Allah swt bless
them for all of their effort in becoming a responsible parents to me. Amin!

The first recipe of my family is "On the spot, we decide..."

The moment I left the gate of Sekolah Menengah Agama Persekutuan Kajang
after Bahasa Arab Tinggi paper in SPM; there is one question; the easiest and 
common question that kind of "haunted" me! Mostly from my relatives and 
sometimes drives me crazy.

" Nak sambung apa nanti lepas ni? Nak jadi doktor or engineer or even perhaps in the accountancy field?".... so that is the question! I just smile; the smile which was never from the bottom of my heart.  

In high school, I "decided" I want to be "Biotechnologist". So, It is kind of
compulsory to me, to write this word " Dr. Amirah Amirmudin; Biotechnologist
on the cover page of  each of my  exercise book. Haih, little laugh
"flashing back" that moment. ><  

Actually, I NEVER discover what is my ambition in the future! Seriously!
Never! My father's once told me, "buat betul-betul! Dapatkan dulu 11 A+. 
Then on the spot,we decide what you want to be!  So, I do what I am
suppose to do during my high school.  To be a student! Learn! Focus!
All of my time I just spent on revision, exercises and memorising the
mind map; facts; acronym and etc...

After the SPM result, I have this huge and serious dilemma! Which is
" ACTUALLY" to decided which field I am MORE into. Suitable to my nature. 
I search on the internet, answering many career inventory and quizzes to 
discover my ability and talent. Whether the field is good or bad for me. 

I filled every scholarship that suit with my SPM qualifications in every field;
medicine, accountancy, engineering, teaching and attending many
interview. It was fun though! The experience of being brave, confident
with every words that utter from my mouth; meeting great competitor with
interesting background; widen my way of thinking and answering interview 
questions; changing phone numbers and connecting through facebook with 
the friends there; and actually; to KNOW the real me. 

The way I "SOCIALISE" with people. 

Eventhough never know your ambition is kind of DISASTER, but I know what 
my father trying to show me! 

You never know what is in front of you. What if becoming Biotechnologist is actually not your DESTINY? My father wants me to always FOCUS in every single thing that I do. Learn first! Then on the spot we decided your ambition suit with my SPM result. I Just imagine how stressful I am if I don't score in my examination during high school and how it will affect my "DREAM" to be bio-technologist.

My father taught me to always give my very best effort in every single thing that I do. Focus! Focus! Focus! and Keep the momentum! After that, on the spot we decide... 

One more story, after getting back from California, I struggle within 
3 months to achieve 5 A in the UPSR. It is too late for me to apply on
boarding school. Alhamdulillah! with the good result in UPSR, I got the 
chance to be in KAA class in the school. KAA stands for Kelas Aliran Agama. 

There will be one extra subject in my PMR; which is Arabic language. 

My father loves His children to learn more than one language. So, He said 
to me " Just learn, I want you to learn that beautiful language. No matter
what your PMR result is.Either that language will  "AFFECT" your PMR 
result later, at least you have the knowledge; for your future and your life.

I believe in you, my daughter! You will give the best! After the result, on
the spot we decide...

Parents always wants the best for their children. To get good grade in the
school. To be the top in the class and to be known. They hoping the best
from us. And it is the ONLY way we can pay back everything that they 
do just to see their children growing happily. 

They don't force me! But I am the ONE who want to prove them! that 
their first born daughter can do it! Accept the challenge! To be good at 
school! to show my father that Arabic language is EASY and NEVER EVER 
going to affect my PMR result!  Never!

I am in college now. Alhamdulillah! With Allah swt bless on my parents 
and me. I am pursuing in Medicine; Not Biotechnology. Just go with the
flow as Allah swt is the best planner!

I am in semester break. Just having a chat with my sister... She strongly 
and bravely admit that

" I refuse to get married! Hehe", 

" What ????? really angah??? Serious???

While having dinner together with the my family, I inform my 
father that my little sister don't want to get married in the future..

Then, my father said.....

"ON THE SPOT,we decide..."

Opppssss... My bad! Haha! 

In every single thing! I will remember " ON THE SPOT, we decide"... 
FOCUS in your vision; don't let other thing distract you because it is just 
the beginning, IT IS A STILL LONG JOURNEY TO GO! In sya allah!

Enjoy being a student! Because all you have to do is just learn!