If today never exist!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

If today never exist!

The blue sky; white cloud; I am looking up high!

The green colony, thorn, woody, with fruit, juicy enough!

Blossoming; smiling; a  mixture of colour and odour

So bright! Sparkling the emotion in me!

With smile yet the tears;

If today never exist!

 The solid question to be asked.

Will I exist?

Witnessing all the creature

presence in every part of dimension

even the end side of me, 

The human!

Sensing the smells, taste, 

Living in red,yellow, blue

The basic of life

Yet I never wonder

If Allah swt hold back the nikmat from me!

If today never exist! 

I will be blindly walking, pacing to the corner

between darkness; burried the soul; died with regretful

or the array of the light; giving life and hope 

to the hollow body; the vanishing part

if not been polished

How the path have save me

Grabbing the time I am drowning

in this blurry life; tick tok ; that will stop 

SOON......

Alhamdulillah!

If today never exist!

Holding tightly; fingers; hands; never let it go

The soft yet hard voice, echoing in my whole heart

Reflecting the real me.

Shaping the virtue inside me, 

From the day, eyes were widely viewing

 to the day of it never blinking again

If today never exist!

The bonding from them,

Loving; Caring; Supporting 

creating and preserving, 

Paying back all of the sweat

to train me in becoming

the warrior, fighting against

the pessimistic thought

Sinking, Hiding, threatening my inner strength

Never turn back;

Stay where I am

Standing; with the pride;

Spread the good, the vibes, the charge

that will change others life.

Be the one you make a choice 

Guiding from slipping

If today never exist!

Saying to myself; deeply inside

only two words to say

ALHAMDULILLAH!

and

I AM NO ONE WITHOUT ALLAH'S BLESSING!

# Writing on my 22nd April 2015. 

The day my mom heard my cries for the first time.

Between "Profesional" & "Choice"

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
On this very fine evening, I am writing this entry to actually express my feeling;
How can I say? Is it the anger? The anger to them or  actually to myself?

It is the reality man! Reality in your society! In the Islamic community!
Major community!


They are all absolutely brilliant. From different background of  education or even 
perhaps the Islamic education.

Allah swt has given us the choice to choose.
To USE our wisdom,
And to THINK about our daily life,

Is it suit with WHAT ALLAH SWT wants?
Actually for real
what are we achieving on?

The HAPPINESS?
oh yes!
what happiness?
to you?
oh yes!


Dear Muslimin and Muslimat
We are struggling to BE AWARDED with ALLAH'S BLESSING
in this very challenging DUNYA and AKHIRAT
in sya allah!

But, why?
why are we neglecting HIS COMMAND ?
It is for our own good right?
Of course for the good!
Because he is our lord! 
The one that CREATES us!

let's get back to the BASIC.
Istigfar for our wrong doing
and ask for His forgiveness
Istigfar for not doing things
just to get blessing and redha

and istigfar for achieving 
our own pleasure.

Wait. wait wait! 
What is happening?
What is the correlation between my previous saying and the title of this entry?

Honestly, I am talking about IKHTILAT
How man and woman interact with each other.
Is it serious?
Why people not looking it something that need to be FOCUS in?
How about your pride?
Keeping away from the FITNAH!
Especially to a woman ?

May be they are not realising it.
or they don't know
But people have choice!

You can choose. 
You can just ask the guy to go to another table in the library
Or you made you own move. Avoiding from it. From ZINA.
Allahu!

You can just walk or speak alone with our same gender
Studying with same gender
Asking  to give help from same gender
What else? with same gender.
EAT, TALK. PLAY
They understand you better than the opposite gender, 
Not the guy!
What else THEY can do?

We have our family. They are our priority
The one that is there!

It is not about being professional in this two gender relationship
It is about making the better choice! 
If you can avoid being together... then do it!
If it is the only choice especially in group discussion
Then, you can still avoid it ! 
Avoid saying unnecessary things
For sure.

Let make a move friends! 
I love u girls
with all my heart!
It just I may not have the gut to voice this out!
Or
I have to think positively
I have to think positively?
me?

Yes I can do it. But what about the other?
Can they think the same as me?
Or even worst 
It is becoming the norm!
That fades away all the important things

People tends to see it as a correct things
ETHICS!
When people do it, achieving the consensus
Then it is the right thing to do,
Open your us!

Al quran has provided everything! 
The guidance to differentiate the truth and the wrong.
May Allah swt guides us!